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I just haven't had anything to update with.
 
I'm no longer going to USU. They no longer teach Korean.
 
I'm attending community college, and I'm really upset about it. In fact, I think I'm the only one who is upset about it. (Thanks for liking that change in universities, /loved that/)
 
I can't decide if I'm upset because I got lied to about the Korean program, or not. They no longer have it, which is precisely why I'm not going. They recommended trying BYU or U of U, but I'm not Mormon first of all, and I have no intentions of trusting U of U.
 
Basically, I assume it all boils down to being stuck here. Maryland is by no means a bad place, but I have no intentions of staying here, and being forced to stay here really just makes me anxious. I have a really terrible fear of being stuck in one place for too long, and this is really pushing it.
 
I'm lucky I can even study Korean around here, I guess. Right now I'm still aiming to leave though. I'll probably just continue to take Korean until I can take the TOPIK and transfer to Ewha Womans University. Next best bet would be Ohio State or Hawaii, and maybe Binghamton.
 
I'm just sick to my stomach of the entire situation. This whole year of school has been pretty well littered with a fair share of liars and cheats and back-stabbings. (and yet no one understands why i want to leave.)
 
this is easily the third or fourth time i've contemplated the idea of overdosing this year.

Buy it, use it, break it, fix it,
Trash it, change it, mail - upgrade it,
Charge it, point it, zoom it, press it,
Snap it, work it, quick - erase it,
Write it, cut it, paste it, save it,
Load it, check it, quick - rewrite it,
Plug it, play it, burn it, rip it,
Drag and drop it, zip - unzip it,
Lock it, fill it, call it, find it,
View it, code it, jam - unlock it,
Surf it, scroll it, pause it, click it,
Cross it, crack it, switch - update it,
Name it, rate it, tune it, print it,
Scan it, send it, fax - rename it,
Touch it, bring it, pay it, watch it,
Turn it, leave it, start - format it.
 
(daft punk - technologic)
 
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found out yesterday i won two awards for the digital arts category in our county's are show. must have not have been many entries considering i only put in two pieces.
 
still i won 25 bucks~ :D

meh, got bored, did a mock up for a new characters office. works as a graphic designer. not too fond of it, but i like the idea of the scattered stickers on the desk and the like.

Watch the stars,
Turn you to nothing.
Now blush and smile as they whisk you away.
 
Part your lips a bit more,
I'll swallow your fear.
I will show you how.
All the bite marks impress
A need to be here,
A need to see.
 
City lights, like rain,
Dance and explode.
Fall upon debutantes
 
Reeling from nights that
Kiss and Control,
All of our, broken hearts.
 
Velvet burns,
The wrists while restraining..
You blushed and smiled,
And said you would stay.
 
One more time seal my breath,
I'll feed you the sky.
I will show you how.
Steal the glamour from death,
And before you die,
Oh, you should see.
 
City lights, like rain,
Dance and explode.
Fall upon debutantes
 
Reeling from nights that
Kiss and Control,
All of our, broken hearts.
 
Hearrrrrrtssss.
Ourrrrr heartssss.
 
"We all want to die like movie stars" you said as you jumped from the height of our cutting room floor.
While above us glowing, exploding, our dreams burst forth in light in death.
Hold me and tell me,
"We'll burn like stars. We'll burn as we fall. Watch as the city lights DANCE FOR US!"
 
City lights, like rain,
Dance and explode.
Fall upon the pain of our lives,
 
Reeling from nights that
Kiss and Control,
Fall apart, the pain of our lives, has pain.
 
Dance and explode.
 
City lights like rain
City lights sowcress me
 
Kiss and Control
 
All of our, broken hearts.
 
(afi - kiss and control)
 
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meehh, this was supposed to be a sort of college themed set, but, that failed miserably. so instead i put a few books i've been reading into it, and this is what you get.

what is this femininity, i don't know ajkfds.
 
that first picture makes me a little bitter.

Katie you're a brave girl, and I know its only just started.
I'm gonna be there at 6, with some flowers on sticks
That were clipped just to make the weak strong.
And Katie, its a strange world when girls can get so broken hearted
If it were me and the universe, I'd get the worst of this gone.
 
Katie, Katie I'm sorry that in your condition
The sunshine's been missing but Katie,
Don't believe that it isn't there.
Oh and Katie, Katie be happy
This world can be ugly, but isn't it beautiful?
We're not really here, and we're really not there
We're really not there.
 
Katie you're a brave girl and courage is something I'll need now.
'Cause its been a hell of a day I've spent fading away
We all fade sometimes, I believe
And Katie its a strange world as I watch the tables get turned around
And you've got the strength that I've lost in a thought that would carry me.
 
And Katie, Katie I'm sorry that in your condition
The sunshine's been missing but Katie,
Don't believe that it isn't there.
Oh and Katie, Katie be happy
This world can be ugly, but isn't it beautiful?
We're not really here, and i'm really not there
 
Whoa
Whoa
 
And it's not the end of the world,
It's not the end of the world,
It's not the end of the world,
'Cause the cops wouldn't break up this party.
 
And Katie, Katie I'm sorry that in your condition
The sunshine's been missing but Katie,
Don't believe that it isn't there.
Oh and Katie, Katie be happy
This world can be ugly, but isn't it beautiful?
We're not really here, and we're really not there.
 
Oh Katie, Katie I'm sorry that in my condition
Your sunshine's been missing but Katie,
Don't believe that it isn't there
Oh Katie, Katie be happy
This world can be ugly but isn't it beautiful?
We're not really here, and we're really not there
We're really not there,
We're really not there.
 
Katie, you're a brave girl,
And I know its only just started.
 
(katie by jacks mannequin)
 
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i think i might ask maggie to go to the last Oh, The Story! show with me. at leasti f i proceed to cry my eyes out around her at any point i know she won't yell.

i can function like this.
i really don't.
 
why do i constantly get chewed up and spit out?
 
thanks for toying with my emotions, i f-ing love it.
 
as for the few people that care, thank god. because otherwise, f-k it.
 
i can't fucking wait to move utah. i will sell every last damn thing i own, because i cannot f-ing do this.
 
a whole three years. what the hell.

GUYS. I'M GOING TO CALIFORNIA.
 
and utah too, to visit my college. my grandfather is taking me. i won't be going until after my graduation, but my god, i'm so happy. i haven't felt this good in a long time now. at the beginning of the year, i was actually pondering dropping out of high school to go get a crap GED and community college, but my god.
 
i'm hoping he'd be cool with me asking to go to the Volks USA store. ;A;